I tried to belong, it didn't seem wrong.

Do you got a first aid kit handy?
Do you know how to patch up a wound?
Tell me,
Are you are you patient,
understanding?
Cause I might need some time to clear the hole in my heart and I,
I've tried every remedy,
And nothing seems to work for me.

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English: Pass
Chinese: Pass
E.maths: Pass
A.maths: Fail
P.chemistry: Pass
P.biology: Pass
Combined Humans(GG/SS): Pass

if i'm dreaming, never wake me up.

Well. Today was rather okay. At first it was REALLY good. And then it got really bad. >.>
I don't know where to start. Spelling bee. I could spell all the words she gave others. And then she gave me a word even she couldn't pronouce. Okay. Never mind. But what the hell, if you see a spelling bee winner that isn't even confident in spelling the word 'assassinate', you'd wanna think again, wouldn't you? I can spell most words, and even Adele is afraid. Like... I don't know. She pronounced it as "ree-kor-ner-ter". I'm guessing she was trying to give me this word "reconnoiter". Even so, the pronounciation of this word is "ree-kuh-noi-ter". She didn't give me the origin of the word. Flying fuck, because if she mentioned it was a word originated from the French, I would bloody know how to spell it. Fuck.
Want to know what I can spell? I bet if she gave me and that winner a contest to see who can spell the most words, I'd probably win. Oh well. Who cares.
I'm exhausted. My head is spinning like crazy. I won't be going to school tomorrow. This is a bloody wordy post. I don't know why. Maybe I'm just overwhelmed. I want to speak to somebody.... Somebody...

I think I'm really losing it... This time... I know why I'm really talking, literally, to myself...


Bye world.

i don't know why you'll never close that open door.

It's Mother's Day today. And I'm helping my friend take care of the lan shop because his shift clashes with his Mother's Day celebration. \: Hmm, not only that, I'm short on cash so I guess I'm helping out too because I need the cash. Sigh.
Looking at the number of customers now, I doubt I'll have enough money T_T So I don't know what to get for my mother now! Because I still need around $14 more... Not as if I can scam out that much money today.
It's a 50-50 chance on the shop being crowded, because the exams are over AND it's Mother's Day. So... >.> Well I still think that they won't be that many customers... :( I'm trying to get people who aren't bothered about celebrating Mother's Day or aren't obligated to, to come down to the lan to accompany me :)

Let's just hope that I will get enough today. >.
Currently working alone >.> With like. Only 4 people in the shop. Oh darn!

why can't i turn off the radio?

Mehz. I'm getting bored my seeing this blogskin. But I have no inspiration for patience in making a new one. So... >.> Nah, I won't settle for any on blogskins.com because somebody else may have it, and it'll turn out to be so LOSER please.

I was thinking, when I grow up I might be a psychologist. Yeah, you must be thinking that I'm crazy... Don't worry, I think I'm crazy enough to have such an ambition because I so totally didn't expect this idea. But look, I want to take psychology after leaving secondary school... >.> Even though it's not what I really wanna be... I guess I'll just have to go with the flow. Not as if I don't like studying why people behave in certain ways.

And then I was thinking again, when I grow up I want to own either a Golden Retriever, German Shepherd, Border Collie or Egyptian Mau. I know Egyptian Mau is so out of the list but it is SUCH a charming cat. And in order to own these big dogs, I must live in a bungalow because such big dogs aren't allowed in stupid small houses. Hah. Which means that I have to earn big bucks. I don't mind; if I get to have such dogs.

Which then led me to think, when I grow up I want to have the freedom to do anything I want without any limits. I know this is starting to sounds like that stupid bank commercial (which one was it again?) but... You know some times people tell you that in order to fully play a game, you have to finish the game first. Isn't it so much like life? When you have fully built your foundation, then can you enjoy it. Well... This pretty much applies to the context in Singapore. \: And maybe other places.

A-ha, and I am still thinking, when I grow up, even if I have all this, would I have achieved anything? Would there be anyone who would remember me? Though I don't like to make that many friends, I do hope that that little group will remember me. It'd be a shame if they wouldn't. I know that making many many many friends is what everyone wishes for but apparently, not for me. I don't like getting so attached to so many people because... I can't give all of them a piece of me.

You can think of me as an idiot, but what matters is that this time, I've been true to myself, and that there were no hidden meanings. Big and wild dreams, aspirations, whatever you wanna call it, as long as you stop lying to yourself, no matter what people think of you, as long as you stop running and hiding, there is nothing to be afraid of. :)

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Now. I am so lazy to upload the photos of the ECP outing with some people on 6th May after the last exam from the Mid-Year Examinations!

By the way, listen up. To all the people out there, from anywhere and everywhere, WHO GIVES A FLYING FUCK IF YOU DIDN'T MEET YOUR EXPECTATIONS FOR THIS EXAM? Because all you have to do, is to just pass and get promoted, so that you can take the BIG exams! Make sure you understand the topic, if you don't you'd better clarify it before all your queries accumulate and AHH! suddenly the exams come and yeah, you know, that.

Don't take my advice seriously, because this only works for people who can afford to slack in class and still pass in the exams without studying much. Like me. =.= With my super cool marks. I'll consider on letting anybody know my oh so super pwnsome marks. Haha.

it's so contagious; i cannot get it out of my mind.

So in the end, I still had lunch with Darling's family on Saturday. On that very fateful day, I also forgot to bring my keys out, OH, what joy. Decided to head down to Darling's lan but some idiot guy, I shall not mention who, psycho-ed me into heading to town to see him. Oh, which he called off the last minute when I was on the highway to town, OH, what coolness.
Oo-kay. So I went down to dbg to find Andrea. I bought her Mrs. Field's cookies. Yep, 3 cookies.. :3 Haha. So I wasted around 3-4 hours travelling to town, finding people and heading to Darling's lan. Aa-ha.
That super nice yoyo-jie was working. It's kind of sad for her... The people who work other shifts have people to accompany them but she doesnt... >.> So when I was done with my fun in the lan, I bought her a tube of chocolates to accompany her :D Woo. At least she gets to munch on something sweet. :) I'm such a thoughtful person, aren't I?
*sighs* >.> The exams are nearly over. I think I'm done for, this time. Therefore, the wordy post with a sarcastic tone. Or anything you wanna think about this. I haven't really been doing much with my life. Just praying hard about my walk with Jesus, which I haven't really been keeping up to. >.> Feel like so bad now. >.> Oh dear.