It is amazing how the world can still go on when your world has caved in once again. Despite having met with the same event, the way to deal it has been long forgotten, as if an ancient way. The reason why we learn history, is because we do not want to make the same mistakes. But has anybody really learnt anything from it all?
You can try to guard the [perfect] idea, freeze and frame it, so hard that you ignore all the scratches on the surface and look right through them as though it were really perfect. But how long, can you keep it guarded? Why do you feel as though you need to keep score or gain the upper hand?
It is only a matter of time, before you realise that you've overlooked and tried to ignore that one chapter of your life. Whatever empowered you to think about this all, well, you've just simply come to terms with yourself and what really happened, because there are some things in your life you can forgive but can't forget.
an extract from one of my weirdest stories ever. i feel like... o__o; because my stories have never sounded like that. anyhow. i think that this is how i can express it most in words. i've lost all powers to pen a poem anymore.
it's much better showing than telling anyway \: at least that is the freedom i gain in writing prose. :i
no, there isn't any hidden meaning in this. i'm just... expressing my thoughts and all now. *smiles weakly* there is nothing to hide. nothing.
Brenda & I didn't want to go to school today again. Don't know why. But I guess going today wasn't such a bad choice... Except for the fact that it was REALLY cold. & we forgot to bring our jackets. *__*;
A.Maths - We weren't too cold at first, so things just went on as per normal. Yay, Janson sat in front of me again... Can disturb him...
SS - As interesting as ever. My SS teacher so totally rocks please. :) She always has a story to tell us ^__^v and they're always so entertaining luh. :-o
Chinese - A sudden wave of sianzationess lapped over all of us... Ohmy. :-o but as per usual, Adele, Joei, Brenda and occasionally Veronica would try to distract the teacher into doing something else... And today they succeeded. Very well. ^__^v
Recess - Nothing much -__- I had quite a boring recess today. Don't know why.. Just felt so off. Maybe because it got really cold and froze me half off. :-o lols.
Chemistry - Oh my godo, I don't know why today's lesson lasted like, FOREVER. Maybe it's because teacher squeezed 2 chapters into 2 periods *__*; and started screaming again @__@;
Lights - Same old boring lesson. Izzuan went super crazy luhs. Kept disturbing Brenda & me. ~__~ Finished my tic-tacs and dropped a few water babies (from my handphone thingy and Brenda's) inside. Lights lesson is super boring please.
E.Maths - Nothing much covered today because teacher was busy doing the admin. stuff for maths. Like the SingaporeMathsOlympiad and remedials. Oh woots mansxzxz. Syazwan thinks he is Mas Selamat. -__- Seriously, I don't know him =x ^__^v
English - Oh, my favourite lesson since I don't need to do much studying ^__^v Brenda & I kept laughing luh. Damn Izzuan and Janson... And the water babies lmao. It suicided! And we laughed our heads off lmao.
Lunch - Pretty much as boring as Recess. *__*; sigh.
SST/Remedial - Spent SST in the library crapping with Brenda, Cheryl, Adele, Joei, Edsel, Charles and Galton. I pity Galton today. -__- Don't know how he studies with the whole table making so much noise lol. Haha. Remedial was crap. Like chinese lesson because it was chinese lesson.
Overall, today was a pretty much ok-ok day. Haha. Laughter is the best medicine I guess. Brenda said I was crazy today. \: It's not like I'm crazy everyday. I mean, seriously. I've never laughed this much in school -__- Maybe it's because of something else I don't know inside me like, it's dying or something. \: At least I no-lifed in school today, occupying me with useless things. Oh yeah, so fun...
p/s: My sec3 camp's in Changi/Bukit Batok. Like wth?? There's a terrorist that was last seen there, and my school's going there to camp?? What is wrong with everyone? The sec3 cohort isn't, over my dead body, going to catch some terrorist and be on the front page of the newspaper you know? I am so not going.
