I ran with my bare feet against the cold snow to remind me that the same coldness is hidden in my heart. I ran until my lungs were about to burst, I ran until I could find no more path before me. I ran hoping I would find you in the end.
What a fool I've been.
There has been nothing here but emptiness.
As the gentle autumn breeze find its place in my hair, I close my eyes and smile.. For a moment I thought it was your gentle touch, your lips whispering words of tenderness... however it was nothing but the wind taking away more of me.
Looking up to the sky I glance back to see the crimson trail I've been leaving behind.. Fuck, I hate this weakness.
After a deep breath I decided I shall not miss anything in this life; I shed my skin and give myself in to the darkness that so gently calls my name. It embraces me with its long strong arms and holds me so tightly against it that I lose my last breath crying out your name in pain.
But you'll never hear it.
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I was broken.
I ran with my bare feet against the cold snow. I ran until my lungs were about to burst. I ran until I could find no more path before me. Escaping from reality seemed to be the sweetest way out after you broke the truth to me.
Indeed, I had been the fool all along.
Misery loves me.
Collapsing onto the unfeeling, icy cold ground, I felt warmth. I closed my eyes and smiled... only to be brought back up in your warm arms. Like a beautiful lie, I slapped you hard in the face. No, I don't want to be taken away any way, anymore.
You pulled me into those arms with such a warmness I had never felt in such a long time. Gently, I gave in to my weakness and cried.
Those tears flowed so freely I literally became a sobbing wreck. I let my guard down and give myself to you. For the second time in my life, I place my shattered heart and broken trust into someone whom i believe can fix me. I lost my breath crying out your name in pain..
This time you heard it.
Don't ever let me go.
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