all i ever wanted was for you to know ____

went to school to check out the streaming results. it was out before 2 luh. enxin was at my place typing out antelope's compo, so i just followed down to get the booklist with enxin & to check if what vivian and brenda said were true.
i didn't want to believe it luh. i am so not e1 material? thank God the sciences have been reduced to double. i'm taking pure bio & chem.. many people tell me to appeal to change toe phys because it's easier... but i think i should just stick to bio because i can answer & score more for bio. \: i think it's time for me to stand up on my own anyways.

nothing much happened today, only that i ate so much junk food because my parents are away on honeymoon. \: so no proper healthy food has been sighted since yesterday dinner. (: hai.
i miss jeffrey so much.. seeing his literature stuff is like so saddening please.. i still remember the crap we had when we were doing his essay. lolx. btw, the crucible sucks!! (:

sorry i don't know how to appreciate this kind of literature. i study poems not prose (: but i write prose though. haha. such controversy.

i'm wide awake and i can see the perfect sky is torn.. you're a little late... i'm already torn.

i've seen this many times alre. :( just took it off pinktard's blog.


Have you ever wondered which hurts the most?
- Saying something and wishing you hadn't?
- Saying nothing and wishing you had?

I guess the most important things are hardest to say. Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them; But...
- If you do, they might break you heart..
- If you don't, you might break theirs.

Have you ever decided not to become a couple because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person?
- Your heart decides whom it likes and whom it doesn't.
- You can't tell your heart what to do. It does on its own... when you least suspect it or even when you don't want it to.

Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but the other person was too afraid to let you?
- Too many of us stay walled up because we are too afraid to care too much...
- For fear that the other person does not care as much, or even at all.

Have you ever denied your feelings for someone becayse your fear of rejection was too hard to handle?
- We tell lies when we are afraid of what we don't know.
- Afraid of what others will think.
- Afraid of what will be found out about us.

BUT EVERYTIME WE TELL A LIE, OUR FEAR ONLY GROWS STRONGER.

Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump.

Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have done, or could have had.

- What would you do if everytime you fell in love, you had to say good-bye?
- What would you do if everytime you wanted someone they would never be there?
- What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt? (even if it is that you don't care anymore)
- What would you do if you loved someone more than ever and you couldn't have them?
- What would you do if you never got the chance to say "I love you" to all your friends and family?

People live, but people die.

I want to tell you that you are a friend.

If you died tomorrow, & God forbid,
you woul be in my heart.

Would i be in yours..?




this is really true, but somehow i just feel that.. it's so hard to share what you feel with the other party.. for fear that they won't understand and might laugh at you.. :(
\: i'll never get to tell him how much i like him. cuz it'll never happen.
buhbye. you shattered my hopes the day you told me you liked another person.. (well at least i have the chance to take care of you.)
:) i think i'm contented enough... i wonder who will i meet that will make me like him like i liked you so much.