One word. Argh.
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I think I am starting to get fed up with the way things work in my life. Yes, I know even though I seem disorganised and I look like I'm probably gonna flunk in everything, somehow things aren't what they seem. Sounds like I'm the black horse but... \: I am tired. I am very tired. Tired til the point of exhaustion. I know I can pull through this, it just depends on whether I want to perservere or not. I really want to, but I'm putting the much more useless tasks to a higher priority. Everybody tells you to prioritise and stuff, but I don't work around a fixed schedule. I cannot stand perfection, I can't even put a finger to this subject, I am afraid of perfection.
Sorry for all the wordy posts these few days, but this is the only way I can express my feelings. I am not an artist, though I may be, in concept art. Art, such a deep subject, I cannot fathom. My mind cannot stretch as far as I will it to, but... I know I do not need to take up such art requests but because they ask me to do it up for them because they trust that I can do it. How can I let them down with such requests..?
I feel like I am slowly losing pace in E.Maths, Chemistry, Biology and Social Studies. There is some hope in E.Maths and Social Studies, and a little in Chemistry but I see none in Biology. I am slowly losing appetite these few days. Insomnia may come along soon. Might be coming down with something before I know it. I really need to no-life like a mad mthrfxcker!
Damnit.
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I think I might as well throw my closet away. Maybe after the MYE I might really have a problem with talking to myself. Hopefully I'll still be okay after the MYE. Academic excellence has always been the hot topic among the teachers - it never dies down. I wonder why.
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[EDIT] @ 8:51pm.
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let me vent my anger a little bit.
