v1:
do these waves never stop crashing the shorelines?
do the birds never stop singing their ever-happy songs?
will humans ever be able to comprehend the (true) meaning of love,
just like how Jesus gave His love without hesitation?

v2:
do these ants never stop serving their queen, like the bees?
do the winds never stop blowing the clouds around the earth?
will anybody be able to understand the feelings of a torn & frayed girl,
who gave her everything to him, only to give him away?

refrain1:
i swore we were one on the night we spent together.
everything was perfect, nothing around mattered.
you bared your heart to me, and i took it all in,
i let you in to me, i loved you with all my soul.
but i don't want and i didn't wish i had to do this,
giving you away wasn't my choice..

v3:
she wanted him, and i let her have him.
i didn't want to let him go; he was part of my entity.
never once did i take any of her property,
just one word from her and i am done with.

refrain2:
she cried to me the other night, how much she felt.
we were entwined and so much in love..
i never meant to do this, i didn't want to,
but it's a choice i had no control over.. (then it's not a choice =.=)
the story of forbidden love, i never wanted to walk this path.
giving you away really isn't my choice..

bridge:
if i had a wish everytime i cried,
you would be here with me forever.
my heart bleeds for you,
i really want you back with me,
forever in my arms...

[refrain1, refrain2]

ending:
i'm sorry, i still love you.
giving you away was and is and is never my choice.
i love you.


my apologies, i'm sorry.
-dinah

his smell is still in my jacket... :(

maybe i'll get some sleep tonight

He looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be
I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without

He talks to me, I laugh cause it's so damn funny
That I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

He walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,

The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
He's the time taken up, but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into..

He looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see.

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reply to tags:

@Jessy: it's dumb but yeah.. i'm trying to get over this guy. \: it's not gerald, it's another guy =x haha..
@bbrendda: aww thanks! but santa's not your fairygodmother =x haha. i think he came by late last night :)
@Jeffrey: hello laopo~
@きろし: damn... this year's christmas is so fucked up luh. other than the really happy things that happened in church {:
@HANNAH: yeah sure xD hehe. must use hor xD

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forget it. \: the holidays started with nothing important and it shall end the same way too. presents excluded. -____- you guys know what i mean. for the sake of jessy & きろし & bbrendda i shall cheer up. but still. *sighhhhhhhhhhhs* what a waste of time!

yep. andrea's right. there's nothing to be merry about this festive season. we should all get a life... and shush, i didn't steal him from you. he says he still loves you. please don't crack those kind of jokes again... they really hurt a lot. and i mean it as LOADS