all for love, the heavens cried; for love was crucified.

to dinopigkor.

i know i was not in the right mood today. i'm serious about not minding you two. i'm only sad, because now you are taking over my job. i will really miss taking care of dinodi because i enjoy doing so. will you please not pretend to believe this, because i know this is really my fault - i went too far & i think you misunderstood everything.. as i sent in my sms, i'm really very upset with myself, not you two. why would i even be upset with you two?? it's not as if you're gonna steal dinodi away from me forever. we'll always be together, the dinopigs, won't we? & about me starting all over again.. it's gonna be fine, i've done it a few times... i just need to adjust and i'll be fine. i really trust you with dinodi, i know that you will take care of dinodi as well as i did, or even better. this is too much to fit in one sms, so i really want you to read this, though i know it might be a little too late. still, do not reconsider the decision because of me. it's okay to make me sad, because happiness doesn't look good on me. i know i didn't even cheer up after going to dinodi's house, & i'm sorry because it was too hard - trying to push away the truth of my upsetness, dinodi's departure, the news & my back hurting. the equation is true then, i guess. it's all because of me, me. i know i look like that dumb girl, i'm sorry cuz i'm just as dumb too. actually i cried also partially because i decided to give up fighting over dinodi with you; i just let my heart break.. it's not your fault okay, i let it happen..

i really hope you won't move on as if this never happened, or just pretend nothing happened, because if you did, i won't know what to do.. let alone, me to dinodi. please.