have you ever been alone in a crowded room when i'm here with you?

i promised the pictures from my v.day celebration with justin.. here they are~ don't be jealous =x


{ i agree with justin that mine was one of the biggest bouquets. he said it costed near 3 digits or 3 digits alre, x__x!


{ though they're just 2 presents, the rest of the surprise was wonderful. :]


{ this is what's inside the smaller present :] i can't bear to eat it!


{ this is what's inside the bigger present :] OMG SIBERIAN HUSKY SOFT TOY



{ the remnants of the bouquet. it's still surviving! (1 more rose at the other side of the vase~)



{ a white rose for my love. :]




{ highlights of the vday concert in church! zomg:]








happy belated v.day to all! with no sugar added!



The Echoing Origins: From the Heavens Above

A gift from God, a newborn child,
A sunflower in the field, waiting to bloom.
One day soon, she's gonna grow up,
Into a wonderful woman who will do His works.

A work of God, a little girl,
A daisy in the pasture, looking for the sun.
It's inevitable; she's gotta grow up,
Into a marvellous woman who will praise Him forever.

A masterpiece of God, a fine young woman,
A red rose in the garden, in its fullest bloom.
Today will be the day she unites with her love,
She'll have a family who will serve the Lord eternally.

A woman of the Lord; her mission accomplished,
A lily in the meadows, awaiting the final judgement.
As the casket grey skies pours forth so freely,
She will now, once again, live and reign with the Lord.

-Tsukiyume


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got this, on my 2nd try. :]
see i am such an avid computer user.

to all the people out there who dislike me (why am i even posting this?)
it's your problem if you want to, because i don't even give two hoots about it. there's only two things you need to know about me, that is, i do not practise 'hate' and i will not disturb you if you don't disturb me. i find no need to talk about any specific person here as this is to the general public. say all you want about me because frankly speaking, it hurts me in no way. you're probably just jealous of me (i don't know what either) and you just want to be like me (cuz i have something you don't?).
you can hurt me all you want, you can try to humiliate me, but you can never take away what makes me, me. i stand in the name of the Lord, and i am trying to do His works everyday. you can stop from doing anything, you can try to bring me down, but you can never stop me from doing what i yearn to do, to love and to praise, to worship and to seek, to be everything the Lord wants me to do.
say whatever you want, i shall not bother to retaliate, because in doing so, you have just revealed your weakness.

i am speaking pure english here; neither flaunting my english nor bitching around (as what you call). at least i don't twit. :o i am just stating my stand here, try to beat me at my game and you'll prove your worth.
flame me on your blog, whatever - i feel that my blog should not be dragged down by such a subject. :)

your problem for infatuating on something you shouldn't, and then later getting angry and confused, resulting in having to insult somebody who doesn't even care about what you say. (and now you're saying to yourself 'i just typed it for myself~' but who cares.)


besides, are you sure you even know him? :)

on a side note...
i don't really have time for this. it's up to you to read it as an insult, or as an advice. just to let you know, it's not your time for something like that yet, so just wait. i waited for seven bloody years yeah. so stop wallowing in your self-pity, get up, and walk. you're bound to meet someone someday. He knows it's not time yet.

that's when i love you, i love you with all my heart.

justin brought me to celebrate valentine's day yesterday :] i still trusted him not to scam me -__- lol. i shall tell the story once again~ since so many people asked me...

we were supposed to meet at 6.15 at vivo at earle's but i didn't make it in time. so we decided to meet at candy empire. he said he was there but i couldn't find him. HEY, i'm good at spotting wally okay. so i called him, but he didn't pick up..
i walked around in candy empire, found nothing appealing so i walked out and this weird weird guy approached me, holding a box of chocolates. he walked up to me and i was surprised?
"uhm, my girlf just dumped me... and now i have this box of chocolates... i don't know who else to give to, so would you take it, please?" he asked
duh, i wouldn't take it. like how am i gonna tell justin some weird random guy on the street gave me chocolates?? -___-;; i still want my heart in one piece yeah.
he kept insisting that i should take it, so being the oh-so-nice person i have always been xD i accepted it, reluctantly, feeling remorseful for taking somebody else's chocolates LMAO.

then i walked to the other side after the weird weird guy disappeared, only to find wei peng.
"eh, you also here ah?" he said.
"ya. what you doing here?" i asked.
"the girl i asked out said she couldn't come out the last minute. then i'm holding her present now... i cannot bring it home so i give you la."
like wth? i'm not a rubbish bin la!
"what's inside?" i asked.
"chocolates la." he said.
"so big box! must be bomb right!" i accused.
"no! i'm serious, just take it!" he defended.
"no~ i know it's a bomb inside.."
"faster la, my mother calling me already~"
i kept trying to persuade him to help me contact justin, and at that moment i saw him coming down the escalator with a bouquet of roses. and wei peng was beside me. i don't know if he was laughing or not.
then i told justin about the weird weird guy and me being a valentine's dustbin. hahahahaha. what a scammer luh =x but i still love him. this was his plan =x because my friends, in which he initially planned, turned him down last minute.. so uhm, the surprise wasn't as what he planned but still, it was c'est magnifque~!

we went to earle's swensons :i and uhm, i have no comments. i don't like eating ~.~ but uhm, eating once in a while is fine~ i guess. we had the soup of the day which was SUPER nice luh, then the main course and the dessert. the skyjuice thingy was niceee except that it was stingy on my tongue. ^^" we didn't spend so much time eating and we left our ice cream cake in earle's first. =x we rushed off to catch kungfudunk. haha. the show is super damn funny LAH. it has no plot and the song is just .... =.=
one of the lyrics of the song goes like, "if i kicked you lightly you would fly to the end of the world. if i kicked you, there would be no world left." like wth?? super funny la!

after the movie we walked more, with me holding my bouquet. it was like one of the biggest, zomg. we also collected our ice cream cake, and YEAH, it came with dry ice. :] we played with the dry ice after we finished our cake, like throwing them into the water display on the 3rd floor. the people who saw us throwing the dry ice in must have thought in the cake box was some secret fun toy~ haha.

i will never this day =x i feel so happy~ hehe. i'll post the pictures later =x

you're one in a million..

.. and that's why i love you.

i never placed my trust in anyone,
til the day that i met you.
you caught me open.
and now im bleeding.

i dont know why it happened,
some things just don't have a reason.
now i carry these scars.
for everyone to see.

i never had a perfect flawless body to begin with.
these scars are nothing in comparison to __;
my heart melted.
and its trickling. away.


(c)-tsukiyume2008

fuck my weakness,
fuck my pride.
fuck the world upside down,
fuck it all.
















































tell me what's a girl to do when her heart is broken but she daren't tell anyone? tell me what's a girl to do when she has broken her guy's heart and can't fix it again? tell me what am i to do, because i'm the one who'd done all those? i'm despicable, aren't i? just because my heart is broken it doesn't give me the right to break others, am i not wrong??? but i just had to test the water, to feel what it's like. i know i've never died before, but... am i such a schadenfreude? i don't even know what i'm doing. am i really that stupid? do i not know where the line is, for others, the line for pain? have i not drawn it out long ago? or has the standard went up by a whole full 5 notches?
i'm sorry i offered you a shattered heart in exchange for the whole heart... i'm just probably a stupid dumbass who is destined to be a loner, outcast...

i tried to be the best i could, it just wasn't enough. i'm still trying. trying to be someone everybody likes. i have never stopped. i guess i'll never be accepted by society, will i? it's a fact that i'll have to accept it sooner or later. there's no point in delaying it... jeffrey tells me that whether u live life happily or sadly, the outcome is still the same. so live life happily. i'm trying to be happy, i want to be happy, i wish to be happy, i yearn to be happy. ... but nothing'll work right?

i'm a freak.

and i'm bloody freaking sorry. it'll never be enough. nothing will.