Saturday, November 10, 2007

i'm not here for your hand to take me, you don't really wanna mess with me tonight.

i love you so much at times i can't look up
for fear that i might faint, die,
or wake up.


woo.. it seems like a super long day!
it's been some time since i stayed up the whole night. :) i really miss the old times where we'd just stay out on the streets and terrorising the local resident's property. :) never mind, let me know when you want us out again together, i will be there for you. :) but you must let me know one week in advance because i'm a busy woman~ :)

today was really spastic luhs, but i think we got sul angry. :o
i went down to church today because i promised sul i would.. and i did okays. i'm a woman of my words.. :) we didn't do much today, we just took up the `angel tree project 2007`. i'm not too sure what's that =x but i know we contributed money to buy some stuff for the residents nearby. all of us headed down to 883 to get the things.. and sul asked me to carry the money around. :)
i think i kinda started it all.. because i told val to hide the money.. and uhm, marcus & amos played along too.. ^^"~ we wasted so much time in shop&save that i don't think we got the time to tell sul we already bought the things.. and we didn't lose the money & basket. HAHAHA.

then i headed down to dbg.. to find david. don't ask me why i did so, because i also don't know why. I CAN'T CLEAR FASCINATION ~ETERNAL LOVE MIX~ ON MY FEET RAAAAAARRRRHHHHHHH
so pissed.. \: maybe i should train more... i missed the beat, so pissed.

anyway.. i think today's really boring. haha. because i didn't manage to take any pictures. and i'm not in the mood to put life in my words.. so it looks limp now. \:

byee.

Friday, November 9, 2007

all i ever wanted was for you to know ____

went to school to check out the streaming results. it was out before 2 luh. enxin was at my place typing out antelope's compo, so i just followed down to get the booklist with enxin & to check if what vivian and brenda said were true.
i didn't want to believe it luh. i am so not e1 material? thank God the sciences have been reduced to double. i'm taking pure bio & chem.. many people tell me to appeal to change toe phys because it's easier... but i think i should just stick to bio because i can answer & score more for bio. \: i think it's time for me to stand up on my own anyways.

nothing much happened today, only that i ate so much junk food because my parents are away on honeymoon. \: so no proper healthy food has been sighted since yesterday dinner. (: hai.
i miss jeffrey so much.. seeing his literature stuff is like so saddening please.. i still remember the crap we had when we were doing his essay. lolx. btw, the crucible sucks!! (:

sorry i don't know how to appreciate this kind of literature. i study poems not prose (: but i write prose though. haha. such controversy.

i'm wide awake and i can see the perfect sky is torn.. you're a little late... i'm already torn.

i've seen this many times alre. :( just took it off pinktard's blog.


Have you ever wondered which hurts the most?
- Saying something and wishing you hadn't?
- Saying nothing and wishing you had?

I guess the most important things are hardest to say. Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them; But...
- If you do, they might break you heart..
- If you don't, you might break theirs.

Have you ever decided not to become a couple because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person?
- Your heart decides whom it likes and whom it doesn't.
- You can't tell your heart what to do. It does on its own... when you least suspect it or even when you don't want it to.

Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but the other person was too afraid to let you?
- Too many of us stay walled up because we are too afraid to care too much...
- For fear that the other person does not care as much, or even at all.

Have you ever denied your feelings for someone becayse your fear of rejection was too hard to handle?
- We tell lies when we are afraid of what we don't know.
- Afraid of what others will think.
- Afraid of what will be found out about us.

BUT EVERYTIME WE TELL A LIE, OUR FEAR ONLY GROWS STRONGER.

Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump.

Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have done, or could have had.

- What would you do if everytime you fell in love, you had to say good-bye?
- What would you do if everytime you wanted someone they would never be there?
- What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt? (even if it is that you don't care anymore)
- What would you do if you loved someone more than ever and you couldn't have them?
- What would you do if you never got the chance to say "I love you" to all your friends and family?

People live, but people die.

I want to tell you that you are a friend.

If you died tomorrow, & God forbid,
you woul be in my heart.

Would i be in yours..?




this is really true, but somehow i just feel that.. it's so hard to share what you feel with the other party.. for fear that they won't understand and might laugh at you.. :(
\: i'll never get to tell him how much i like him. cuz it'll never happen.
buhbye. you shattered my hopes the day you told me you liked another person.. (well at least i have the chance to take care of you.)
:) i think i'm contented enough... i wonder who will i meet that will make me like him like i liked you so much.

Thursday, November 8, 2007

I'm coming down with a heartache tonight; Only you can make it all right

LAST 2e4'o7 CLASS OUTING? OMG LUH.

we had joy,
we had fun,
we had seasons in the sun..



at least it was enjoyable. :) really. i'm so gonna miss all the random perfume scents in the class & mr chong. :) SIGHHHH. WHY DO ALL GOOD THINGS COME TO END? anyway. here's the crazy crap we all had...

WARNING.
LAME CONTENT UP AHEAD.
IF YOU CANNOT STAND PEOPLE WHO ARE LAME, PLEASE KINDLY CHANGE CHANNELS.

:)

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everyone headed down east coast park today. i went with those who took public transport down, which included me, enxin, vivian, brenda, juma'ah, aqylah, qihuang & mintun. though we didn't exactly leave admiralty at 11.30am... we still made our way down to east coast park okays! :)
we reached there and found the low lying areas flooded... with what? with brenda's saliva... at least she admitted that she was bored last night, so she went down to ecp..

{ TO SPIT SALIVA..


{ so zor tang lors..


thankfully there're only two directions in ecp - left or right/front or back. because meiting just told us, "you don't know where pit 17 is? just face the beach and keep walking to your right." -.-! luckily we found them, otherwise we'd just be there playing by the beach. lols. taufik brought his skateboard along, as per usual. i don't know why la, enxin is so fascinated by it.

{ the board is travelling but she isn't


{ taufik is being cool, :) like he always is
i think taufik & i are just plain cool, we're decked in total black & white today. ^^"~

the organisers planned amazing race.. i think i'm getting bored of it, \: almost all camps have this game.. so it kinda sucks. but still, at least they came up with something, & they put in the effort. so i guess it's only right for us to play their games.
everybody was reluctant to be in the groups the organisers had placed them in, so they had no choice, even mr chong, but to let us get into our own groups. they said they'd planned a maths pro in every group... but they still let us get in our own groups, so brenda, vivian, enxin, me & taufik got into our group. :)
taufik's so funny cans.. he's in love with enxin's purple phone (i am, too) and the transformers sticker on the cover.

{ FASCINATION ô.ô


{ enxin doesn't even know why the sticker is there -.-!


lol.. i think this is the one and only class outing which i didn't organise ^^"~ i'm usually one of the organisers and i don't know why.. it's kinda sad though, because today, i'm playing the games..
vivian & i got bored while waiting for our first clue... so..

{ left vivian, right dinah


at least we cleared the first station okays! not bad liao hors, shows that we've got brains.

{ here's our sotong brenda arguing with our suave mr chong! (lolx.)


{ and then with the station masters. lol wtf.


AND I DON'T KNOW WHY THERE'RE SO MANY DOGS IN ECP TODAY LUH! LIKE OMGGGGGGGGGGGG
(brenda's fed-up with me screaming at almost every dog.)



oh yah, it was really very windy today. so cold.



SO MANY DOGS.

{ they were like rubbing each others' noses luh.


we reached station 2, and had to DANCE. anything lor, we did the infamous brenda version of twinkle twinkle little stars. t-.- so many people were like staring at us, wondering wtf is wrong with us lors. nvm, vivian, enxin, brenda and i are from the shameless toots.. so it's okay.. and taufik is so blur... so it makes no difference anyways.. :)
then we moved on the station 3, but couldn't find charles. STUPID GORILLA, WILL IT KILL YOU TO NOT RUN AROUND FOR A DAY?? so we gave up... but on our way we saw..

{ a woman covering her head with a paper bag..


{ a group of indians who wanted to take a picture... with us? eee, biantai.. nonono, we rejected and taufik, being blur.., helped them...


{ a real pyramid.. at least it's made of sand.


{ another dog.. (but it's not cute lors.)


{ a beautiful sandcastle :)


{ a hole in the sand.. reminds me of fantasticfour.. the part where the ferris wheel was like dropping and then the silver surfer made a hole that sucked up all the water into the crater of the earth... i wonder what happened to all the rest of the water anyways... maybe brenda drank it up and spitted it around the place...

OKAY. THAT'S JUST PART ONE OF MY SIGHTSEEING TRAIL! :)


then we went to deesiao brenda in the sand. since we had our slippers off and our toes were tickling the sand, vivian, enxin and i covered brenda's feet! :) taufik was still walking around blurly..



i love the way the waves lick the shore, makes the shoreline so smooth.



okay, we decided to not waste time anymores, so we went to find meiting. :) we bluffed her that we completed all the stations.. haha. all but one.. we forgot about her station.. i don't know, but meiting didn't tell us anything and we had to do the forfeit, which was to eat the chilli. it tasted bland, no soya sauce.. so i didn't eat all. ^^"~ but it still tasted sweet overall.
we made a deal with meiting - we would continue playing the game, if she told us where all the other station masters were =x in exchange for us doing forfeits for all stations except for veronica's & hers..
brenda was like -.-~ so fed up liaos, enxin was like "you just tell us where the station masters are, we will find them and forfeit all the way! you write down on a piece of paper.", vivian was like "-.-~ no mood no mood", and taufik was like ??? lols. i was watching the show...
however we didn't find anyone :) we went straight back to the pit.
AWW THE ORIGINAL GAME DIDN'T WORK OUT. because amazing race never works in places like these.
so we just went straight for the BBQ! :)

{ AND MORE DOGS LUH!! OMG!!
the dog looked kinda sot in the first pic =x


i don't know which dog to love?? sorry i have a fetish for dogs :) AAAHHHHHH!


haha. it was at around 5 when vivian, enxin, brenda, taufik & i headed to the beach near our pit. the sand in that area was like SUPER SMOOTH LAH! lol. so we played there for around half hour ba.. until the others joined us and keesiaoed together :)
somehow when you're having too much fun you don't notice the other things around you.

[and girlf called me!! suddenly so happy.]

vivian & i were so amused by a coconut! omg.





eh there was wind... so the thing slipped off our fingers de okay... not we dunnoe how to throw..




& this is our suave mr chong being the satay man :)




{ apparently this was built when we were having too much fun.
enxin claims this to be her tomb.. but vivian say, "you so big, your tomb meh?" lolx.

meiting, veronica and lingling came to join in the keesiaoness. they wanted to 'commit suicide' by walking into the sea. I HAVE NO COMMENTS.
i really don't know what enxin is thinking lah?? she wanted me to take a picture of her before she 'dies'. -.-? siao.
okay lor, i post for you to see...

{ ENXIN AHHHH.


{ I WANT TO DIE :( (-.-?)
(those who want this pic, leave me a tag, i will send it to you.. email, friendster, phone... please specify.. lols. no funny things hor! like send to your backside..)


{ i got nth to say??




they didn't go far in the first try because i think vivian or enxin suddenly screamed or what ah? then they all run back. lols. and then again!

{ diao -.-!


{ and AAHHHH! (lol)


{ "wah seh, so scary lah.. there like got curb.. almost fall down... you wanna try?"


{ lol, i have no comments for this. please click.

for my non-chinese friends, the chinese characters mean :
"if they drift any further, they'll appear on the news. & if they do, i'll die of laughter." LOLLLLLL

I REALLY DON'T KNOW WHY THIS ENXIN SO KEESIAO ONE. vivian wanted to walk into the sea again.. so she asked enxin too.. but before they started walking.. enxin screamed at this...

a floating plastic bag...

lol.. so she walked into the water alone to prove to me that she wasn't afraid. but when the high wave came in... (i lazy to edit..) anw she looks terrified of the plastic bag... same same, this picture has 2 meanings... :)


{ vivian: !! enxin: OH MAMA the sea so big


{ & 1 more dog picture :) so sad i couldn't take anymore because i was overexhausted at seeing dogs... :)


the sun began to set, and the barbeque has finally begun.. :) meiting had to cook for brenda, vivian, enxin & i for cheating our feelings! she told us there was a nearer toilet so we went in the opposite direction... & then i slowly rmbed that there was NO toilet further down. t-.-! so she had to cook for us. :) THANKS MEITING, :D haha. so nice of you, but your crabsticks are always not cooked well enough.. got cold cold one leh.

i shall end this oh so fun but tiring, lovely, sentimental day with the sunset.. :)






Wednesday, November 7, 2007

maybe we're torn apart..

current earbug:
Empty
The Click Five

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{ i spam max300 heavy on my finger & this is the best record so far. :)


{ YAH ALL 5 STAGES MAX300 HEAVY LOL.


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{ & this is your lovely lydia being spastic


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i think i'm feeling better today. since fwb called, i've been so happy. but the earbug somehow cheers me up more. WHY MUST THE SONG BE SO SHORT?? I HAVE TO KEEP REPLAYING IT LAH. never mind. :) i have some stuff i have not let you guys catch yet. ^^
it happened on monday so it isn't too late, cuz it's only wednesday today :) haha.


fwb's mother let him go out on monday... i don't know why either.. o.o;; (his mother thinks that we're dating.. lol, wtf mans. i'm only taking care of him.) so david & i went to find him in the morning.. and there was a traffic jam on the highway, that's why we didn't reach at 10.. but i think at around 10.30 or something like that. sorry we made you wait, fwb >.<"~ (i still miss you now..)
david & i wanted to eat but i couldn't settle on normal food so i went to get junk food. :) and david had ba chor mee in the morning. hahas. i had M&Ms & some biscuit like food that tasted more of like fertiliser if you ate too much of it.

{ SORRY I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME..
it spilled..

{ & tell me what's wrong w this :)


{ don't worry, the M&Ms are clean. :)


then we walked around the place, & rotting as we walked. :) we slacked at fwb's place.. :)

{ (:


we got bored at his place =x so we went back to pwp.. & wasted more time. e.g. sitting at the ice cream parlor to find spelling errors in their slideshow. :)

{ lol, wtf..


fwb wanted to eat. (lols.) so we headed down to pastamania, cuz he said he felt like eating something pasta-ish. \: oh wells.
btw, the song 'Arrabbiata' has been unlocked in DDRSuperNOVA2 :)

{ arrabiata, the pasta. arrabbiata, the song.


we had takeaway, to eat in that red house in his condo.. :)

{ so serene, so peaceful..


{ oh what crap ;D


we wasted time the whole day.... :)