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my heart suddenly feels so heavy. i don't know why. it's like a sinking feeling, like everything's vanishing in that black hole... it's so heavy...
...
i feel morbid. and it hasn't been long since i had this feeling. maybe it's cuz of Aslyn's song that got me emo-ish... \:
sigh.

it's really pulling me down...

when i crack a joke, i start to feel down.
when i emo, i start to fall apart.
when i cry, i start to crumble.
when i lose control of all i have, i start to lose myself.
& i already have lost myself.

i'm really sorry, i couldn't keep your promises.
i tried to change myself but nobody appreciated it.
i tried to be someone else, but nothing seemed to change.
i'm at a loss.
i've tried.