i've got miles and miles to go before anyone will ever see me smile again*

fuck.




credit: the-panic for the picture.

can i ask what will happen to you if you let your headache stay in your head? like let it stay and fade away itself... because i think you will become stupid if it stays... like will it rot your brain or something... i'm hoping it will happen.

someone. please confirm with me that i am losing it. that i am going crazy. that this is not just a dream.


p/s: please don't ask me why i have never accomplished anything in my life. i always have to give it up to make room for "more important things at the current situation". doesn't this prove that i'm a total failure yet? sheesh.

Too close for comfort;.

Do not stand at my grave and weep.

Do not stand at my grave and weep;
I am not there. I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow.
I am the diamond glints on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain.
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awaken in the morning's hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry;
I am not there. I did not die.

"It is largely considered to be written by Mary Elizabeth Frye (1904-2004), but of disputed origin." Wikipedia.

A little something for everyone to chew on.

but there's so many things that i want you to know;.

One word. Argh.

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I think I am starting to get fed up with the way things work in my life. Yes, I know even though I seem disorganised and I look like I'm probably gonna flunk in everything, somehow things aren't what they seem. Sounds like I'm the black horse but... \: I am tired. I am very tired. Tired til the point of exhaustion. I know I can pull through this, it just depends on whether I want to perservere or not. I really want to, but I'm putting the much more useless tasks to a higher priority. Everybody tells you to prioritise and stuff, but I don't work around a fixed schedule. I cannot stand perfection, I can't even put a finger to this subject, I am afraid of perfection.
Sorry for all the wordy posts these few days, but this is the only way I can express my feelings. I am not an artist, though I may be, in concept art. Art, such a deep subject, I cannot fathom. My mind cannot stretch as far as I will it to, but... I know I do not need to take up such art requests but because they ask me to do it up for them because they trust that I can do it. How can I let them down with such requests..?
I feel like I am slowly losing pace in E.Maths, Chemistry, Biology and Social Studies. There is some hope in E.Maths and Social Studies, and a little in Chemistry but I see none in Biology. I am slowly losing appetite these few days. Insomnia may come along soon. Might be coming down with something before I know it. I really need to no-life like a mad mthrfxcker!

Damnit.

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I think I might as well throw my closet away. Maybe after the MYE I might really have a problem with talking to myself. Hopefully I'll still be okay after the MYE. Academic excellence has always been the hot topic among the teachers - it never dies down. I wonder why.

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[EDIT] @ 8:51pm.

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let me vent my anger a little bit.

shalalalala, in the morning;. \"(;,,;)"/

I was reading Pingping's blog and I chanced upon this web. It tells us not to be fooled by the food packagings! They may look realy nice but end up like .____." wtf. Pundo 3000 shows you how true the packagings of the food really is! Really entertaining. ^___^v

Today I called the cck peeps, and Andrea and Lydia to celebrate Jeffrey's birthday. Though it really is so far off from what I expected... I guess it's our presence that makes it all up :) I shan't tell you what we bought for Jeff but when Lydia and I bought Jeff's present, I got some USB aroma thingy for Darling. :) It's to help him stay awake *__* I know I shouldn't be keeping him up awake while he games. Aren't I such a wonderful person? ^_________________^v~~*

I also bought him some candy. Chocolates and lemon sweets. Sweets for my sweet. Heh xD I wonder why am I buying so much candy for Darling. o_o! Lol. But it's nice okay! I only buy Meiji candy for him... Isn't Meiji just the dreamiest candy&chocolate brand~? Heh :x

Yesterday I went to the Planetshaker's concert with Janelle and Kathlyn and two other idiotic guys called Kevin and Brendan. Lol that Brendan guy got lost at Changi I think ~_~ (omg I forgot how to spell CHANGI for a moment ftw!) The concert was awesome.. Though I fell asleep halfway through.. I think I was too tired out, I could even fall asleep at such a noisy place! zomg pls. :o

I am thinking of buying a dress but it sounds ridiculous... But I think I will be getting it. HAHAHA. :D Let it rot in my closet >:D yeh~~

in the diary of jane;.

How to play:
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press foward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question if it doesn't make sense. No cheating.
4. With the answers, give your own comments on how it relates to the questions.
5. Tag 5 people.


How are you feeling today?
Good Charlotte - Victims Of Love
I don't know how this relates to how I'm feeling today.
Furthermore, I don't see how this relates to me in any way!

Will you get far in life?
Vanessa Carlton - A Thousand Miles
^_^v along with Darling, I will go even the ends of time with him. :)

How do your friends see you?
Jason Mraz - I'm Yours
Wowza~ Cool :]

Will you get married?
Avril Lavigne - Together
I guess it's a yes :x

What is your best friend's theme song?
Wyclef Jean ft. Akon, Lil Wayne & Nia - Sweetest Girl
O-oh, loves please! ^_^v

What is the story of your life?
Younha - Houki Boshi
Filled with shooting stars!
Many many for me to make wishes :D

What was high school like?
Mika - Lollipop
Ooh, sezy, lollipop ^_^v!

How's your life going?
Avril Lavigne - Too Much To Ask
A-ah, my life is filled with enough things :x
I treasure everything.

What's the best thing about your friends?
The All-American Rejects - Move Along
They move along easily? That's sad :(

What song will they play during your funeral?
Papa Roach - Scars
"I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut.
My weakness is, that I care too much."
O-oh~

How does the world see you?
Michelle Branch - Everywhere
I am able to teleport and bend time :x

Do people secretly lust after you?
Simple Plan - The End
No link T_T

How can you make yourself happy?
Britney Spears - Walk On By
I don't walk on by everyone :(

What should you do with your life?
Rooster - Staring At The Sun
Keep staring, keep keep staring (at the sun).

Will you ever have children?
Stacie Orrico - (There's Gotta Be) More To Life
If he wants, I'm fine with it. :D

What song would you strip to?
Goldfinger - Stalker
"Oh oh oh, she's following me.
Oh oh oh, she's outta the tree.
... I wanna marry my stalker." Haha, xD

What does your mum thinks of you?
Puffy Ami Yumi - Teen Titans Theme
Maybe because she thinks that I'm still childish but..
I've got a kid in me! xD

What is your deep, dark secret?
Panic! At The Disco - I Write Sins Not Tragedies
Shh... Don't tell anyone!

What is your mortal enemy's theme song?
Mediacorp Radio, Dan & Young - My Butt
"I'm gonna invite my mother, my father and everyone to -- *my butt*"
Lols yeah :D

What's your personality like?
The Click Five - Friday Night
Funky <3<3

What song will be played at your wedding?
BeForU - Ki.Se.Ki
-Miracle; <3
Loved ;x

I shall not be tagging anyone ^_^v