Friday, December 28, 2007

You can't kick me because i'm already on the ground.


live every second like it was my last one


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toy with me won't you? dumb ass. just trying to thank you only to be retorted by "shut with that". wow. sorry yeah, i wasn't the least bit affected that night and i don't give a bloody damn about these words because i ain't taking them back. no i'm not gonna end this with "take that, sucker" because i'm not about to be mean now; i have enough knowledge and self-discipline to end it in the most appropriate matter. *shrugs* oh well, i don't really want to be bothered by this little minute little problem. {:

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yeah, the school term's about to start, and WHY'S EVERYONE FALLING SICK NOW? -___-" or at least in my circle of friends. \: i'm falling sick too. HEYO, i don't wanna be missing my first day okays. i don't wanna be the TOOTFACE on the second day of school for everyone except me. i'd rather be tootface with everyone on the first day. :) hehe!
aww mans. i think the flu's getting to me. /.\" feels weird!! sobs.

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yay. thanks cedric. :)

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heyo きろし, he aint telling me how to kiss the bottom lip ;o hehe.

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jeffrey, you suck so much you're practically a vacuum cleaner.
JOKING. you rock okay. but still. i rock more than you, stone. meh =3=

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yeah i love you too andrea. don't be jealous you didn't get a space here. :)

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I LOVE MYSELF! :D THIS IS MY SPACE, RAWR! xD


My handwriting tells me:
You are sometimes a very energetic person, but you are sometimes quite lethargic. You're moody, prone to ups and downs, and you don't have a lot of endurance.
You range from very outgoing to very shy. You are a shapeshifter who is very versatile. You adapt well, and you look at things from many angles.
You are balanced and grounded. You know how to get along well with others.
You need a bit of space in your life, but you're not a recluse. You expect people to give you a small amount of privacy, and you respect their privacy as well.
You are somewhat traditional, but you are also open to change. You listen to your head and your heart.
You are a decent communicator. You eventually get your point across, but sometimes you leave things a bit ambiguous.



My shade of purple:
You are a sweet person with a very soft personality.
People become easily entranced with you. They seem to glow around you.
You have a quiet energy that can keep you active late into the night.
Even if you aren't the life of the party, you definitely keep the party going.



I'm only 51% selfish:
You are quite balanced. You are able to compromise when it's in the best interests of those involved.
But you're no pushover. If something is important to you, you'll get it!



My life is 75% offtrack:
If you're honest with yourself, you have to admit that you often feel like you're living the wrong life.
It's a pretty easy conclusion to come to - because it seems like not a lot is going right.
Consider finding a life coach or mentor. You need some encouragement in turning your life around.



Guys Think You're Easy to Be With... But Not Easy...
You're definitely a flirt - and a good one.
But you also know that you shouldn't make a move on any cute guy who passes by.
You save your seductive moves for someone who already knows the real you.
That way, your sex appeal is just part of the whole package.



The males say i'm choosy:
Men notice you light years before you notice them
You take a selective approach to dating, and you can afford to be picky.
You aren't looking for a quick flirt - but a memorable encounter.
It may take men a while to ask you out, but it's worth the wait.



I'll find love where i least expect it:
You're the type most likely to find love... surprised?
You shouldn't be! You're a fun, independent woman who is always out and about.
And you're smart to sometimes leave your girlfriends behind and go it alone.
Men love to approach you when you're out by yourself - including Mr. Perfect!



What my dreams mean:
Your dreams seem to show that you're very preoccupied with your fears and problems.
These bad dreams indicate that you need to spend more time on your issues during the day.
Your dreams tend to reflect your insecurities.
Your dreams indicate that you have very conflicted feelings.
You secretly want to hide your dreams from your waking mind.



I'm 47% open:
You are a fairly open person, but you also like to maintain your privacy.
You definitely will tell all (okay, almost all) to your closest friends...
But strangers and acquaintances only get a peek into your life.



My kind of woman shoe:
You're a total free spirit, go with the flow girl.
You can't be restricted by shoes for very long.
And unsuprisingly, the same goes for men.
Your match is out there - and he's as carefree as you are.



I'm the autumn:
Thoughtful
Expressive
Creative
Poetic
Smart



My personality:
You are elegant, withdrawn, and brilliant.
Your mind is a weapon, able to solve any puzzle.
You are also great at poking holes in arguments and common beliefs.
For you, comfort and calm are very important.
You tend to thrive on your own and shrug off most affection.
You prefer to protect your emotions and stay strong.

Thursday, December 27, 2007

jingle bell rock.

watched i am legend today. hmm. not such a bad show. why do shows that show the annihilation of mankind never fail to bore me? *thinks*

ah well. *shrugs* somehow it's only the survival part and the design of such inhumanly aliens that draws people to it... and YEAH, it's the love between the characters keep the show real. \: *rolls eyes* laughs. it's kind of a nice show... didn't miss out any good stuff today xD haha.

oh my shit :( school is starting soon! i must enjoy the remaining days i have left without any restriction~ damn.. :( never mind, what to do, this is Singapore for you... crys.

bye. stupid short post. no pictures anymore. i lazy. meh. your pasal mansxzxzxzxz. i want to enjoy my days without entertaining any of you readers :) no offense, it's my life and i want to live it up in my way. yeah. :)

byeeeee <333

Wednesday, December 26, 2007

v1:
do these waves never stop crashing the shorelines?
do the birds never stop singing their ever-happy songs?
will humans ever be able to comprehend the (true) meaning of love,
just like how Jesus gave His love without hesitation?

v2:
do these ants never stop serving their queen, like the bees?
do the winds never stop blowing the clouds around the earth?
will anybody be able to understand the feelings of a torn & frayed girl,
who gave her everything to him, only to give him away?

refrain1:
i swore we were one on the night we spent together.
everything was perfect, nothing around mattered.
you bared your heart to me, and i took it all in,
i let you in to me, i loved you with all my soul.
but i don't want and i didn't wish i had to do this,
giving you away wasn't my choice..

v3:
she wanted him, and i let her have him.
i didn't want to let him go; he was part of my entity.
never once did i take any of her property,
just one word from her and i am done with.

refrain2:
she cried to me the other night, how much she felt.
we were entwined and so much in love..
i never meant to do this, i didn't want to,
but it's a choice i had no control over.. (then it's not a choice =.=)
the story of forbidden love, i never wanted to walk this path.
giving you away really isn't my choice..

bridge:
if i had a wish everytime i cried,
you would be here with me forever.
my heart bleeds for you,
i really want you back with me,
forever in my arms...

[refrain1, refrain2]

ending:
i'm sorry, i still love you.
giving you away was and is and is never my choice.
i love you.


my apologies, i'm sorry.
-dinah

his smell is still in my jacket... :(

maybe i'll get some sleep tonight

He looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be
I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without

He talks to me, I laugh cause it's so damn funny
That I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

He walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,

The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
He's the time taken up, but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into..

He looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see.

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reply to tags:
@Jessy: it's dumb but yeah.. i'm trying to get over this guy. \: it's not gerald, it's another guy =x haha..
@bbrendda: aww thanks! but santa's not your fairygodmother =x haha. i think he came by late last night :)
@Jeffrey: hello laopo~
@きろし: damn... this year's christmas is so fucked up luh. other than the really happy things that happened in church {:
@HANNAH: yeah sure xD hehe. must use hor xD


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forget it. \: the holidays started with nothing important and it shall end the same way too. presents excluded. -____- you guys know what i mean. for the sake of jessy & きろし & bbrendda i shall cheer up. but still. *sighhhhhhhhhhhs* what a waste of time!

yep. andrea's right. there's nothing to be merry about this festive season. we should all get a life... and shush, i didn't steal him from you. he says he still loves you. please don't crack those kind of jokes again... they really hurt a lot. and i mean it as LOADS

Tuesday, December 25, 2007

i fake a smile so he wont see

i am really too depressed. i refuse to update any of the happy shit that i went through in the week. i dont want to because i am too sad to be pretending to be happy. im really too tired and weak from acting. i need to see gerald now. NOW. omg.