i fake a smile so he wont see

i am really too depressed. i refuse to update any of the happy shit that i went through in the week. i dont want to because i am too sad to be pretending to be happy. im really too tired and weak from acting. i need to see gerald now. NOW. omg.

I never meant the things I said To make you cry; Can I say I'm sorry?

shit happened.

i don't want to take her stuff. now all i have to do is to say one word and i have it. it was a mistake... i should never have walked down that path. curiosity killed the cat. now i don't know what i'm feeling. this year's christmas seriously stinks...
am i too nice..? i have been giving her all she wants. she's been pampared too much, too spoilt. people tell me i have to be selfish at times.. but i can never do it. i'm the kind who will give in to you if you ask. and the kind who always worries very easily about you. apparently after building these qualities for six years, my efforts paid off... and shit happened.


I DONT KNOW.
I REALLY DONT KNOW.
STOP FORCING ME.
I DONT WANT TO STEAL HER STUFF.
BUT I REALLY REALLY
....


....



[edit because of ray]
wow he kissed me sia~ omg~~~ so happy yayayaya. whatever ...
sorry ray my mood is super bad now but i will try to act with whatever i have left in my strength today.... i hate this.

i feel like a hero, and you're my heroine

YEP i am back from sanctuary's chalet! {: was too tired yesterday to update~ and i am still lazy now.. but a brief one will prolly keep things going for quite a while ^^" =x

today,
i went to find justin at his very slack working place. {: rotted and bit each other lol. xD and he is a %#)!*%!(@#$&@P#(%#&)@#&@ kind of SCAMMERRRRRRRR :( qi pian my feelings T.T
okay whatever. so biting me and trying to rape me and scamming meeeeee, this is for you! hmphf!


373 days and we still stand strong
crappish and bullshitty you'll always be
though our first year went by so quickly
we know our second will be better

lion; you'll always be remembered
if it weren't for you there'd be no today
both the moments of joy and sorrow
forever will they stay close to my heart

borders reserved for the special other
had already been crossed and
what else could have happened;
our bond had only grown stronger

we are each other's only support
the times where one was down
and the other to help stand through the storm
and smiled through it

`sanctuary` was only the start of the fun
'til today we stand rooted to the ground
wit the banner of the Lord flying high,
arms locked with an unshakable faith

the person who kept me through
373 days and still counting
justinian liew kiroshinoke amishite
ily, {: hahaha

random unpoem-like poem for you
-tsukiyume


YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY i love you lol. 373 days! wow! so fast!! lol. i am being so uber `kuku` here. mans~~




YAY. christmas is coming. {:

jingle bells,
kiro mehs,
randall is damn gay.
jeslynn is so huggable
and gerald thinks he's shuai

hmmm. i guess that's all for today. {: nights people! i want to chiong maplestory: the show. go watch it! omg.

am i that obvious?

i just wasted 65minutes of my life playing the endless mode on stepmania. =.=" at first i chose the supernova2 category, which had 42 songs. then the first few songs were like.. wtf? so i played supernova in the end. supernova had 65 songs. -____-" like wtf, i stared at the screen pressing 4 buttons for 65minutes? omgggg. so i did the ray-style: suicide~! hahahahaaaaa.



like YAAAAAAY! 4k combo! i only aimed for 2k though. OMGGGG


i played until like the 37th song... omfg i was just too tired... endless mode are for people who are rotting half their lives away... ZZZZ wtf MANS. so many songs... to think i ACTUALLY SAT THRU IT. wtf! i am so =.="

I'M SUPPOSED TO BE DODING MY CHRISTMAS CARDS BEFORE GOING TO CHALET LUHS! omg.

she keeps her distance and sits on fences

WELCOME TO ANOTHER EPISODE OF..
YUME-CHAN'S DIY-HAVE-GOT-NOTHING-TO-DO-AT-HOME-AND-AM-ROTTING-VERY-SOON SHOW!
today i will teach you...

HOW TO COOK INSTANT NOODLES IN 3 MINUTES! (it's my speciality, ray xD be jealous)

step one.
get a metal bowl to cook your noodles in, and fill it 3/4 full of water. because when water boils, some of it kind of evaporates and by the time you get your noodles, you'll be left with half the bowl of soup! :) so make sure the water's only 3/4 full!




step two.
switch on the fire. {: you play with the fire and it's not my business if your house burns down or whatever. yume-chan is not reliable for any damages done to your health or house or whatever. just make sure when the water starts to bubble, you drop in your pre-cooked noodles.
(fire toned down in the picture due to the prevention of camera lens melting. hahaha.)




step three.
if you're afraid of fire and daren't switch on the fire too huge, you can drop in the noodles when you see a little bit of bubbles at the bottom of your bowl. :) remember to put in the seasoning too.




step four.
when you see some white stuff coming over your noodles... FEAR NOT! your seasoning doesn't have poison in it. -___-" it's just the bubbling effect from the boiling of the water. ohmy, what were you thinking??




step five.
stir it please.



step six.
YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY.
your noodles are done.






* * *

i realise my toes turn really pink after i ddr. cool eh? xD


and bugis junction is pretty... :)


and i just found out that poor lydie had her brain fried when she contracted a super high fever when she was 4... yes the doctors managed to save her but her brain has been toasted :'( so i guess that's it for lydia. :( [lol wtf]






p/s:i'm going away for chalet from sunday to tuesday. :) will be back with more updates! <3
p/p/s:do not flood me with smses or i will refuse to reply you.