no sir, no i don't wanna be the blame, not anymore.

played on the lines of danger,

& played past it many times.

but what happens, and where do you go, when you have gone too far?

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i know i shouldn't have went back to the esplanade, to sit there and reminisce about the events of last year. but i guess, that's the only place where i can find comfort in, even if it meant i was played.
i have said this before, and i will say it again.

i need no pity - don't bother to try to help me by solving things your way, because i will hate you for trying to do so. let me do things MY way, let me settle it in the way i am most comfortable in. don't assume that by making me happy i WILL be happy, because i will not. even if i have to fail badly in whatever i'm trying to accomplish, then let it be! only then will i be able to learn from whatever bull that i have met along the way. because i hate it when other people start gossiping on the wrong facts, making me sound like the idiot.

i don't need anybody's help. and if i do, i will ask. otherwise, let me solve my own problems. i don't need anybody's sympathy.

[tobecontinued]

i burnt out every bridge that i built when you were still here.

[EDIT] @ 5.37pm



MONDAY

WENT TO SAKAE SUSHI WITH :D
The decision was random ._. Jason, Xinyi and I decided this while quarrelling with some people :x Haha! Then this Ming guy also came. So funny jor.

Xinyi


Jason


Ming


They like to eat hot tofu. ._. It was too hot so I didn't try.



:D I couldn't help it.



WEDNESDAY

I TOOK OFF MY BRACES! :D
Then Xinyi decided to call the people down to watch movie, since I was at PlazaSing alr. Xinyi arrived first, so then we decided to stuff ourselves with food ._. Then Zicheng came. Then Jason. Edward = slowpoke.
We watched The Chronicles of Narnia : Prince Caspian. :D Lucy so cute pls. :}

THURSDAY

ROBOTICS CAMP! D:
I dread camps.
But after going, I think it's kinda fun luh. Because Brenda, Qihuang, Qutub and I kept playing taiti. Don't know why we didn't get bored of it. HAHA!

It was Amazing Race first. But er, like always, it doesn't work out. D: Okay never mind. Then we headed back to school. The dinner was buffet :D Haha, okay I shan't say anything bad about this round...

Then came the nightwalk. The thought alone of the nightwalk was like freaking everyone out, even some of the organisers... So yeah, persuasion, and it was like, brought down to a less scarier level. :) It went on pretty well...

It was pretty scary. See, even Weihao put on makeup ._.



Because this was a 2 day 1 night camp for special reasons, I decided not to sleep :D Then Brenda, Qihuang and Qutub decided to play taiti >:D Haha! We played for like damn long lor... It was pretty fun, considering the fact that I had alr played 2 and a half hours of taiti with Yingxuan at the pitstop during the not-so-Amazing Race ._. Heh, then came the super funny part la.

It was like 5.30 am alr, and Qutub started drinking this green coloured gassy drink again... And he said, "Wah, whole night drink gassy drink ah..." And continued drinking. Then I said, "Wah, then whole morning fart ah..." And ... He spitted out the water!! OMG! :x IT WAS HILARIOUS.

FRIDAY

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOEI! HERE'S YOUR "recycled" CAKE, BY ADELE AND YOURS TRULY <3







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(Taken from Xinyi)

Sorry if I haven't been replying to people's messages, it's because.

1) My sms exceeded the limit I wanna keep my smses too.
2) I don't wanna reply you and I don't see a need to!
3) I read your message and forgot to reply.
4) My message got stucked in the outbox and as usual there is no notification like outbox (1).
5) I didn't check my phone because I don't bother to.

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GET THIS RIGHT, PEOPLE. I don't care if my mother is reading this, I don't care if my teacher is reading this, I don't care if anybody who has higher authority than me in my life, READ THIS BLOODY THING BEFORE ACCUSING ME OF IGNORING YOU AND TRYING TO GET INTO ANY TROUBLE I WISH TO.

If I ever decide to stay out in the night with anyone at any place, this decision will ALWAYS and FOREVER be impromptu. Because I do not have a death wish yet. The only reason why I'd stay out at night is because I had a freaking quarrel with my family members. I will not choose to stay out at night just because my best friend quarrelled with me. If anything smaller than a fight with my family members, I won't stay out, because there is totally no point at all. And if you think that I stayed out with someone else because I want to ignore you, go ahead and think that way. I can't do anything if you want to be that way. Fuck it. Go call the police and send me home then. I don't care.

1. This thing called 'Father' does not exist in my dictionary anymore. I consider myself fatherless. (physically)
2. Next thing out of my life totally, is 'Mother'.
3. My brother might still have hope, if he does not piss me off any further than I am with my whole freaking family NOW.
4. I dare not go back to church because I have this feeling that everybody is against me.
5. If my school friends decide to turn their back on me, I will not hesitate to just die.

[EDIT]

Yeah, remember this well. This is my life, I do things MY way. Don't try to make me do things YOUR way because everybody has their own way of doing things in life. Don't think that you can understand my life by making me do things in your way. If you don't understand what I'm doing, then STOP assuming things. When you assume, you make an ASS out of U and ME. ARGH. If you don't understand, then leave me alone!

Okay yah. I appreciate all that you're trying to do now, but it's all a little too late now. Go find someone else because I'm done with this. You know what I am already, you should have seen this coming.

something's dying on the inside; i'm still broken but i'm free

Maybe that is why they all say love is blind. It drives you to do things you would not do when you are sober… But if love is blind, how is one able to feel such indescribable emotions? To say that there is no word or phrase that can describe love, sums it all up because love is just a word to put anxiety, bliss and agony together.

Phyllis had never believed in love at first sight, because it is simply groundless forces of attraction to somebody you barely know. Such baseless feelings often lead to actions on impulse, thus contributing to the rising number of heartbreaks. It is strange though – everybody knows what it is like to feel your heart shatter, yet, without hesitating, they go on with it.

The only mistakes she'd ever made in her life were small… But ever since that day, her life has changed completely. Wiped out. Reformatted. Turned upside down. I guess, love can be a miracle and a danger; it all depends on how well you utilise it, because that night, she let her guard down and the impending hazard wrecked her life…

Phyllis sat on her bed, letting the darkness engulf her and wondering where she had gone wrong. What made her so attracted to him? She looked outside at the stars that never failed to make her smile at the slightest bit of twinkle. The stars had always been there for her, be it good or bad times, but tonight there were only so few.

Both of them were enigmatic, a sort of charm that made you just want to catch all of their attention. Like a free spirit, they could not be binded by normal means... That was what made her want to capture everything they had. Such a despicable cad like her... They should not exist to break other's hearts right?

Or maybe, just like her close friend had said, she was just waiting and finding the right person who could bind her like she does, that both of them would never find their way around without each other... But how long was Phyllis going to wait, and how many cases of heartbreaks would happen?

maybe you're stuck on me too.

There was this girl that lived in that block down the street. Everyday she goes to school, like any normal kid would. However, the only thing that made her seem so different was that she always walked to school and back alone, always had lunch alone; to put it simply, she lived her life alone.

Nobody dared to tell her the mistakes she has made, because they fear the contagious disease she carries around - being alone. The same cold feeling of the world bored into her mind everyday, leaving her to fend off all dangers on her own. There wasn't a single kind soul who would guide her to the light at the end of the tunnel.

Eliorette smiled dreamily as she watched him walk ahead of her. He never failed to make her smile even at the simplest thing. Her happiness and smiles, such simple things that may seem so minute on the norm, meant a lot to her. Whenever he was around her, there was this bubbly sensation inside of her, something she had never felt before and she liked it. Indeed, she should be feeling happy but instead, she was feeling the opposite.

Maybe that's why they're called dreams, because they will never be reality. In fact, dreams are just the exact opposite of reality - the cold, harsh and unfeeling rush of worries and anxieties of the people who exist on the face of this earth. Then again, nobody said it was ever gonna be easy...

The wind blew in Eliorette's face, gently sending her hair flying around into a chocolate brown mess. Golden pillars of the sun's warm rays were thrown around in the park, slowly warming up the atmosphere. As she lifted her face up to see him with that belle go by, a prickling sensation started up behind her eyes.

They reached the end of the park, only to be greeted by the sight of a newly-wed couple, still in their wedding attire, taking pictures. The three of them sat on the ground in silence for a few minutes before deciding to do anything.

"Do you think I'll ever get a chance to see this day?" I muttered to myself, not expecting any answer.

"Why yes, you will darling," the pretty girl said to the wind, as if answering my question. As if on cue, he nodded and whispered, "Why don't we just wait?"

Eliorette felt a violent wave of warmness surge up from the neck to her face. Turning away, she faced the pavement, mumbling, "We..."

As she slowly returned to the sight of the bride and the groom, Eliorette placed her worries aside, unaware of the movement of the belle's head to his shoulders, joining in unison.

you were my life, my hope, everyday.

Went to ECP again yesterday :D Headed there with Xinyi, Jason and Justin. Though we didn't catch the sunset, we cycled to the end of the park and back, in two hours :D And played mind games with xinyi and jason. :x

Yeah, there were dogs in ECP yesterday, *nods* but there wasn't many. I saw Siberian Huskies and Golden Retrievers :D

So cute siol. :x

We went to Sushi Teh for dinner. Haha, it was funny I tell you. Xinyi and I ordered chuka wakame and chuka kurage for appetisers :D


I ordered Shoya Soba :D So did Jason and Xinyi ordered some wild vegetable soba and Justin had plain Udon.


Oo-kay. So then I started to eat. But then I found a piece of paper on my spoon. x_x So er, I told Justin. Then Xinyi and Jason were like, wah got paper, gogo, tell tell. So er, they did.
The person who was serving us was like shocked too. He took my bowl and apologised as he brought it to the kitchen again. Then because I was wondered I could get extra fishcakes because of this matter, er Jason went to kachiau the person about this. :x And I got my extra fishcakes.
Okay, so I got another bowl of Soba :x Then came Justin's sushi. E-eh! Found some paper in the sushi! Okay! So we went to tell the person again. He was hesitant; I guess he was just afraid that he might get scolded by the manager D:

We enjoyed the rest of our meal and later paid for the bill. So cool jor, the manager actually offered us free dessert but uhm, we were leaving already D: Not so bad ah, the cute chocolate wafer thingy was actually offered! >_<
Jason decided to apologise to that guy because we kind of caused some trouble to him. But we complimented on his wonderful service to the manager. :D Yay we made somebody's day :D I wonder what the manager do to that guy. :)

We didn't take pictures together D: So sad. But we'll be having sushi again someday :D I think it'll be this week. Heh. Can't wait gua. High tea! :D

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The 3e1 spirit! Lawl. I thought it was supposed to be spelled 'bochup'. ._."


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[EDIT] @ 10.39pm

Is it just me, or is everyone i know getting a smiley piercing. ._." Not like I'm planning to, but why? >.> I've got nothing to say. Really. Nothing at all.
I feel like I'm dying everyday. ._.