You look so beautiful today.

It is amazing how the world can still go on when your world has caved in once again. Despite having met with the same event, the way to deal it has been long forgotten, as if an ancient way. The reason why we learn history, is because we do not want to make the same mistakes. But has anybody really learnt anything from it all?
You can try to guard the [perfect] idea, freeze and frame it, so hard that you ignore all the scratches on the surface and look right through them as though it were really perfect. But how long, can you keep it guarded? Why do you feel as though you need to keep score or gain the upper hand?
It is only a matter of time, before you realise that you've overlooked and tried to ignore that one chapter of your life. Whatever empowered you to think about this all, well, you've just simply come to terms with yourself and what really happened, because there are some things in your life you can forgive but can't forget.

an extract from one of my weirdest stories ever. i feel like... o__o; because my stories have never sounded like that. anyhow. i think that this is how i can express it most in words. i've lost all powers to pen a poem anymore.
it's much better showing than telling anyway \: at least that is the freedom i gain in writing prose. :i
no, there isn't any hidden meaning in this. i'm just... expressing my thoughts and all now. *smiles weakly* there is nothing to hide. nothing.

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Brenda & I didn't want to go to school today again. Don't know why. But I guess going today wasn't such a bad choice... Except for the fact that it was REALLY cold. & we forgot to bring our jackets. *__*;
A.Maths - We weren't too cold at first, so things just went on as per normal. Yay, Janson sat in front of me again... Can disturb him... LOL
SS - As interesting as ever. My SS teacher so totally rocks please. :) She always has a story to tell us ^__^v and they're always so entertaining luh. :-o
Chinese - A sudden wave of sianzationess lapped over all of us... Ohmy. :-o but as per usual, Adele, Joei, Brenda and occasionally Veronica would try to distract the teacher into doing something else... And today they succeeded. Very well. ^__^v

Recess - Nothing much -__- I had quite a boring recess today. Don't know why.. Just felt so off. Maybe because it got really cold and froze me half off. :-o lols.

Chemistry - Oh my godo, I don't know why today's lesson lasted like, FOREVER. Maybe it's because teacher squeezed 2 chapters into 2 periods *__*; and started screaming again @__@;
Lights - Same old boring lesson. Izzuan went super crazy luhs. Kept disturbing Brenda & me. ~__~ Finished my tic-tacs and dropped a few water babies (from my handphone thingy and Brenda's) inside. Lights lesson is super boring please.
E.Maths - Nothing much covered today because teacher was busy doing the admin. stuff for maths. Like the SingaporeMathsOlympiad and remedials. Oh woots mansxzxz. Syazwan thinks he is Mas Selamat. -__- Seriously, I don't know him =x ^__^v
English - Oh, my favourite lesson since I don't need to do much studying ^__^v Brenda & I kept laughing luh. Damn Izzuan and Janson... And the water babies lmao. It suicided! And we laughed our heads off lmao.

Lunch - Pretty much as boring as Recess. *__*; sigh.

SST/Remedial - Spent SST in the library crapping with Brenda, Cheryl, Adele, Joei, Edsel, Charles and Galton. I pity Galton today. -__- Don't know how he studies with the whole table making so much noise lol. Haha. Remedial was crap. Like chinese lesson because it was chinese lesson.

Overall, today was a pretty much ok-ok day. Haha. Laughter is the best medicine I guess. Brenda said I was crazy today. \: It's not like I'm crazy everyday. I mean, seriously. I've never laughed this much in school -__- Maybe it's because of something else I don't know inside me like, it's dying or something. \: At least I no-lifed in school today, occupying me with useless things. Oh yeah, so fun...

p/s: My sec3 camp's in Changi/Bukit Batok. Like wth?? There's a terrorist that was last seen there, and my school's going there to camp?? What is wrong with everyone? The sec3 cohort isn't, over my dead body, going to catch some terrorist and be on the front page of the newspaper you know? I am so not going. There's a terrorist on the loose and we're going to camp. Like wootsxzxz.

L wants candy

L wants candy!
The lip sync part is just awesome.
i like his smile at 1.45 zomg :-o
Enjoy! :D



p/s: he's just so hot cuz his lips are those to die for ones. yeaps. *_* hehe. it's a fact isn't it? :}

leave the past in the past, gonna find the future.

i didn't want to go to school today. but i thought about brenda and -_- went to school. because if i didn't go today, she would skip school on another day and leave me to rot in class alone. LOL.
and brenda told me she didn't want to go to school today too. adele wasn't in school today, so if both of us didn't go to school, that would make 4 absentees in class, including fareha. even though it wasn't planned the teacher would suspect that we skipped school today but yeah, that isn't the case. see, we are good obedient students. *beams*
so, for rewarding myself, i treated myself to hokkien mee. :) with brenda. though we skipped some workshop thingy it has been a long time since i ate it *_* hehe. so yeah, i'm still eating now. :) the chilli rocks! =x


oh yah... ms rita gave us an english comprehension to complete today. and there was this funny statement...
"Ah Cheong, the next zoo icon..." *looks at alvin*



@Jes:
orh okay. *_* dont take any offense though. i'm just stating what i see without going in depth because i'm not supposed to know, i think. but... what do you mean by "doesn't even know the basic things about God"..? o: (no underlying meanings, but uhm, i'd like to hear from you :) ^^)

hearts around the world are on fire tonight.

:)

happy 6th monthsary to my dearest fwb, ily ;D
happy 2nd monthsary to you&me=x

and because today was our 2nd month, justin and his father whipped up a feast. yeaps, i just finished. the feast looked like those you'd find in restaurants, with a huge chicken! omg, you know i can't handle chicken so uhm, i just ate the little piece by the side =x oh and the mashed potatoes were like so, sdoginsrohmytiannasraourbga wonderful.
the cabbage was pwnsome too :D hmm, like his father said, it was the sausage that pwned us, because it contains 35% fats, making it quite a filling part of the dinner. also, the mushrooms were sooo nice! i dunnoe why got 2 different colours de o_o but yeah! those were the button mushrooms! the edible ones for me :) as i only eat button and enoki mushrooms :)

yeahyeah, now i forgot what i wanted to type. hehe.


I LOVE L PLEASE :D i mean i love kenichi. hehe.
but then.
i love justinian more pl0x. he's like, mine. :}
mine pl0x. xD

if i gave you this box of awesome nothing, would you go away?

it's another leap year. isn't it like so cool? :o i like the science behind it.
it's 29th febuary today.

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i know it has been 10 days since i last updated my blog. i haven't really had time to take care of my life. ~.~ sigh. it has been a long time since i bought anything for myself, and had a proper rest of at least six hours. meh. i'm really tired.

it's been a long time since i had a dream. it's been a long time since i actually touched my comp to do something i want. it's been a long time since i had anything nice to eat.

i want to get away.

i want to.

fly.

away.

because i can't seem to be able to let go,

to let go,

of.

my pride.